My precious angel.

It was the most painful journey anyone could ever travel ..

It was Monday, July 25th. I rushed home from work cause you're sick. You have tonsillitis as the doctor told yesterday when Mama brought you at Santos Medical Clinic. That caused you high fever and sick. Luckily, I got a skip train. I came home the earliest time possible. As I arrived, you're just lying, watching television. Then you saw me, you should me the pain you've been hiding the whole day. You looked pale, weak and very sick. You told me you can't breathe. So I hurriedly change clothes so I can bring you to the doctor. You told me .. "Mommy, wag na tayo alis. Higa na lang ako." But I told you that we are going to your daddy's place and that made you agreed to get up and come with me. I don't know how strong I am that moment because all I think is how I can bring you to the doctor.

It was just you and me. I decided to go to Papa's house cause I don't have money that time. all I am thinking of is to rush you at the hospital. I never thought you are critical. At the jeepney, you whispered to me .. "Mommy, kawawa naman ako." and I said, "No baby, di ka po kawawa. Wait lang po malapit na tayo." My heart's already breaking. I am so helpless. I tried calling your dad, or anyone that could help me that time but there's no one. We arrived at Papa's house, I am already crying. I asked for money and immediately brought you to Santos Medical Clinic. Unfortunately, they didn't accommodate you sweetie cause you look very critical, your lips turning violet and I already don't know what to do. But I decided not to panic. I decided to bring you to the nearest hospital. As we arrived to Mary Johnston Hospital, the doctors at the Emergency Room, rushed on to you, put on the oxygen mask but still you hardly can't breathe. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to feel. The doctor told me that tubes will be placed to help you breathe. Your xray results were not good. Half of your lungs were already white. I never thought how critical your condition was. You went to school that week, completed your attendance. No cough, no flu. Fever on Saturday, On Sunday you're brought to a clinic and it was only tonsillitis and suddenly, you were like that.

You are awake at the E.R I was looking at you. You are so brave little kid. :) I ask you if you're okay and you nod at me, your lips are getting red again. You getting well, as I thought. But still, they need to admit you at Pedia Incentive Care Unit (PICU) for observations. You have that machine to support you on breathing and will help your oxygen intake to be 100%.  But because of the medicines injected to you, you fell asleep ..

The doctor told me that you are critical. You have low oxygen intake that caused you to breathing fast. Your heart beats so fast, tendency is it might be tired and eventually it might stop... unlike when you are born, it beats slow. But that time you survived it.

I asked Mama and Tita to go home so that they could rest first and I will just update them from time to time. No one is allowed to enter the PICU except me and your daddy. Your pulmonologist doctor went home around 12 AM and told me that the oxygen was helping. Around 2 am in the morning, Your daddy asked me to take a rest for awhile, but I can't. I took a glimpse of you and your oxygen intake went down. I already knew it. I felt it already. I prayed the rosary. After few minutes, the nurse assigned to you called me. Your heart stopped. They tried their best to revive you but you didn't respond. You slept forever sweetie. And I don't know what to feel about it.

I lost the love of my life. I lost my precious one. I lost the meaning of my life. I lost everything I had. I lost my happiness. I lost my dreams, my plans. I lost you .. and now I am at lost. I don't how to pickup the pieces of my heart that was broken. I don't know to start a new life without you. 

Weeks passed not having you around, I tried to be strong, I am showing everyone I am strong but nobody knows how broke I am from the inside. I am longing so much for your hugs, your kisses, your iloveyous. But I promised you that I will be brave. Your love will make me alive forever.

Thank you for the opportunity to carry you in my womb. Thank you for almost 4 years of love. Thank you for bringing the best in me. Thank you for inspiring me always. Thank you for your talents that made everyone love you. Thank you for trusting mommy at the very last time. Thank you for being my son, and thank you for giving me the opportunity to be your mom. I'm sorry for the times I am not there. Sorry for all my mistakes and shortcomings. I'm sorry baby. I'm so sorry. It was the most painful experience I ever had. I don't know how long it will take to heal the wounds in my heart. I'm sorry anak.

My little angel, Zachary Lucas Drake, wherever you are right now, I know you're happy. I know you are in a better place. I know heaven is a happier place now because they gained a very precious angel. Spread your wings son, fly as much as you want. And enjoy playing with the angels. Help us to heal the pain and pray for everyone who loves you to overcome this.

Til we meet again sweetie. Iloveyousomuch anak koo. Mahal na mahal na mahal ka ni Mommy. Fly high, Lucas. <3

Love Ko 'To

Being a working student became a great challenge for me. But being a crew was very fun. I love to be one of them. I love being with my Mcdonald's family. I was great being with Team 434. It was one of the best experience ever.

Being part of this family, I would like to introduce our latest and upcoming products. :)

1. Mcdo Burger/Chicken Bundle.

 Good for three burger bundle: 1 bff fries, 3 burger of your choice (except Big N' Tasty), 3 drinks.
 Good for three chicken bundles: 1 bff fries, 6pcs. chicken with 3 rice or 3pcs. chicken with spaghetti, 3  drinks.
 PRICE: P 399

 Good for four burger bundle: 2 bff fries, burger of your choice (except Big N' Tasty), 4 drinks.
  Good for four chicken bundles: 2 bff fries, 8pcs. chicken with 4 rice or 4pcs. chicken with spaghetti, 4  drinks.
 PRICE: P 559


2. Mcdonald's Fry Holder

   Available at all Mcdonald's Drive Thru. Just add P45 pesos at every medium burger meals.

3. Twister Fries

 It's backkk! :) Comes with Regular Size or Bff Size. It also has combo meals.Regular Twister Fries: P 65,   Bff Twister Fries: P139 Twister Fries with Mcfloat: P85, Bff Twister Fries with 3 Mcfloats:  P184 Limited product only. Get it until it's gone!

4. Green Apple Sprite Mcfloat

  Now available as permanent product. Regular: P25, Monster: P35

5. Chicken Mcdo Plus Meals

  Our best tasting chicken, now with side dish. Choose among regular fries, cheesy mashed potato or mac n'   cheese. It is all available for 2pcs. chicken mcdo.

  1pc. chicken with regular fries or cheesy mashed potato and regular drinks: P109 

  1pc. chicken with mac n' cheese and regular drinks: P119

6. Chicken Mcmuffin with Egg and Sweet Ham Special

 Our upcoming products available on October 7!! :) I don't know the price yet. Please visit Mcdonald's  Lyceum Intramuros and be the first to taste our new products. 

 Pappapparappapaaaaa. I'm lovin it!!

                                                                                                                

Four o' seven.

Tenth day of September, 2012. The worst yet best day of my life. The same day when my world turns upside down.

I remembered my mom waking me up early that day. We were going to the clinic for my weekly check-up. We arrived at 8 am in the morning. The doctor was not yet around, so we wait for few minutes. When it was my time to be checked, I felt quite nervous. And I thought to my self, maybe it is my day.

The doctor told me that I already need to be admitted to the lying-in. He was coming. :) My mother called at home to ask for few things that is needed for this wonderful event. It was ten o' clock when I was admitted at the clinic. The dextrose was quite painful, and I was very nervous at that moment. I was about to enter in to that quiet room. As I entered to that room, I told my self that I was about to enter a new chapter of my life.

Things went hard. I never thought how painful it would be. For me, it was the most painful physical feeling I ever felt in my whole life. That moment, I knew that every pain I had was worth it. The head doctor came and he told us that I need to transfer from other hospital because their facilities were not enough for my case. I was crying for help but my mother had nothing to do but hold my hand. I was about to give up but I had no choice but to face it.

I was transferred at nearest hospital. At first, the hospital refused to accept me because I was from other clinic. Maybe because of my merciful face and my weak body, they accepted me. I was rushed at the emergency room. They tried to do the same procedure to me but I was really weak at the time. No energy, and all I want to happen was to finish everything. I beg the nurses to do the easiest way to finish it and they immediately rushed me to the operating room. I was lucky enough because the scheduled surgery that time was moved. It was about 3:30 in the afternoon.

As I entered the operating room, I felt nothing. I already felt numb, all I wanted was everything to be done safely for him, I don't really cared to whatever happened to me, as long as he will be fine. They changed the dextrose I had. They put an oxygen hose on my nose and a thing on my fingers to trace my heartbeat. The doctor asked me to bend,  a three inches needle was injected two times at the lower part of my spinal cord for the anesthesia. I felt nothing. The doctor asked me to lift my legs but I can no longer move it. The anesthesia was effective, which means it was the start of the operation. I was lying and all I can see was the clock on my left and a machine where I can see my heartbeat on my right. The feeling was very unusual. It was my first operation ever.  I was shaking, but the doctor said it was normal. I was catching my breath. That moment, I was just praying that everything will be fine. After a couple of hours of too much pain was the happiest moment of my life.

"Good cry. Time of birth, 4:07pm," the doctor said. His cry was the best melody I ever heard in my whole life. That very little cry. A tear felt and all that runs in mind was. "Thank you God." My baby was transferred to the nursery room and I stayed for the operation. Around five in the afternoon I was transferred to the recovery room. According to the nurses, I need to rest and wait for the anesthesia to be defective. After two hours, the doctor brought him beside me, I wasn't able to see him because I can't move but it was the very first time I held him. I was the most blessed person that time. After that I was moved to the ward around 10:00 pm. My mother held him and that was the first time I saw him. My cute little baby boy. I never imagined I could ever had an angel like that. And it was the happiest day of my life.

Some people may judge you. I was the youngest in that room but I don't care because I am the happiest one. It was a roller coaster experience but I am very thankful to surpass it.

People say, being a mother at your early age will ruin your life. But that idea was wrong. It doesn't ruined my life. It was a challenge accepted. Life may be tougher but I am stronger now. It is not about what other people say. It is about that little boy who completes my whole life.