Four o' seven.

Tenth day of September, 2012. The worst yet best day of my life. The same day when my world turns upside down.

I remembered my mom waking me up early that day. We were going to the clinic for my weekly check-up. We arrived at 8 am in the morning. The doctor was not yet around, so we wait for few minutes. When it was my time to be checked, I felt quite nervous. And I thought to my self, maybe it is my day.

The doctor told me that I already need to be admitted to the lying-in. He was coming. :) My mother called at home to ask for few things that is needed for this wonderful event. It was ten o' clock when I was admitted at the clinic. The dextrose was quite painful, and I was very nervous at that moment. I was about to enter in to that quiet room. As I entered to that room, I told my self that I was about to enter a new chapter of my life.

Things went hard. I never thought how painful it would be. For me, it was the most painful physical feeling I ever felt in my whole life. That moment, I knew that every pain I had was worth it. The head doctor came and he told us that I need to transfer from other hospital because their facilities were not enough for my case. I was crying for help but my mother had nothing to do but hold my hand. I was about to give up but I had no choice but to face it.

I was transferred at nearest hospital. At first, the hospital refused to accept me because I was from other clinic. Maybe because of my merciful face and my weak body, they accepted me. I was rushed at the emergency room. They tried to do the same procedure to me but I was really weak at the time. No energy, and all I want to happen was to finish everything. I beg the nurses to do the easiest way to finish it and they immediately rushed me to the operating room. I was lucky enough because the scheduled surgery that time was moved. It was about 3:30 in the afternoon.

As I entered the operating room, I felt nothing. I already felt numb, all I wanted was everything to be done safely for him, I don't really cared to whatever happened to me, as long as he will be fine. They changed the dextrose I had. They put an oxygen hose on my nose and a thing on my fingers to trace my heartbeat. The doctor asked me to bend,  a three inches needle was injected two times at the lower part of my spinal cord for the anesthesia. I felt nothing. The doctor asked me to lift my legs but I can no longer move it. The anesthesia was effective, which means it was the start of the operation. I was lying and all I can see was the clock on my left and a machine where I can see my heartbeat on my right. The feeling was very unusual. It was my first operation ever.  I was shaking, but the doctor said it was normal. I was catching my breath. That moment, I was just praying that everything will be fine. After a couple of hours of too much pain was the happiest moment of my life.

"Good cry. Time of birth, 4:07pm," the doctor said. His cry was the best melody I ever heard in my whole life. That very little cry. A tear felt and all that runs in mind was. "Thank you God." My baby was transferred to the nursery room and I stayed for the operation. Around five in the afternoon I was transferred to the recovery room. According to the nurses, I need to rest and wait for the anesthesia to be defective. After two hours, the doctor brought him beside me, I wasn't able to see him because I can't move but it was the very first time I held him. I was the most blessed person that time. After that I was moved to the ward around 10:00 pm. My mother held him and that was the first time I saw him. My cute little baby boy. I never imagined I could ever had an angel like that. And it was the happiest day of my life.

Some people may judge you. I was the youngest in that room but I don't care because I am the happiest one. It was a roller coaster experience but I am very thankful to surpass it.

People say, being a mother at your early age will ruin your life. But that idea was wrong. It doesn't ruined my life. It was a challenge accepted. Life may be tougher but I am stronger now. It is not about what other people say. It is about that little boy who completes my whole life.